I’m sitting here having gotten too little sleep…again…yet instead of yawning (pardon me while I yawn-sorry, all I have to do is see the word), I’m feeling pretty darned good. For the third day in a row. Looks like treating the thyroid and low vitamin D, daily pool workouts, and cutting gluten out of my diet, is all finally starting to pay off.
I’m a human being again, the zombie days soon to be a distant, unpleasant memory. And I couldn’t be happier.
For the most part.
Some things aren’t all that pleasant. For instance, I’ve tried some recipes for gluten-free biscuits, and all I have to say is that they’re probably always going to suck. But, as with the bread, I’m going to continue tweaking recipes until I find something that is acceptable.
But you know what? Even if the biscuits and bread continue to be disappointing, I don’t care. It is so worth the trade-off.
I expect that only another writer can truly understand how constant mental fatigue affects their productivity. Because it’s almost impossible to string two words together that make any sense, much less fifty- or ninety-thousand, when you’re too tired to think. And it really affects your sense of self-worth when the words won’t come. Yes, it does impact other areas of your life, and it’s never easy. But when writing is what you do, when it’s who you are, being unable to find the words is scary. Even when there’s a valid reason for it.
For the past few days, though, that reason is becoming less valid. And I hope the trend continues. And gets better and better as the weeks turn into months. I need to write. And I need it to not be a constant struggle. The words are there. I just needed my brain to wake up in order to find them.
And that’s a good thing when you consider that I have sixteen books waiting to be written. That doesn’t even count the editing I need to finish on Enza.
Maybe now I can start spending some quality time with keyboard. Which would be wonderful! Things are getting pretty crowded in my head. Time to transfer some mental files to my writing program so I can start plotting more stories.